April 30, 2011

I love you Kalen Day. <3 I miss you so much!

April 28, 2011

So, its now been 4 days since I've heard from you. And, I have mixed emotions about that, I'm a little frustrated and worried.  I just don't understand why you haven't been here and it worries me to death. It confuses me as well, especially after your mom called me the other day, why can't you do the same just to let me know everything is okay? Baby I just want to know that everything is fine; I can't help but worry about you and about us when you're gone for so long. I try my best to keep myself busy but the truth is, I'm on yahoo all day and all night when this happens just waiting for your name to pop up on the screen telling me you're online. Well, I just wanted to vent because this is driving me crazy but I'll be here whenever you are. I love you babe, no matter what <3

~Samantha

April 20, 2011 @ 8:08 pm

Ive been thinking about you a lot lately and imagining little scenarios in my mind. :) Well, yesterday when I was walking to class I was thinking about when we move in together and us playing around together. The scene went a little something like this:
We are just getting the keys to our new apartment and all of our things are still packed away and we haven't gotten it all into the apartment yet. We go in to explore a bit and look around and look at each other in amazement, thinking "wow, this is really OURS!" And we are standing in the middle of the empty living room, as I walk closer to you and give you a huge hug, out of excitement and you kiss my forehead. We look at each other and begin to play, tickling each other, etc. Until we are on the floor. :p Well then I realize, We haven't brought all of our stuff in yet! So I say "babe, we need to move in the rest of these boxes then we can relax." So we go downstairs to bring the rest in and then I lay out on the floor, tired from carrying stuff and wait for you to finish what you're doing. Then, you come over and lay on top of me, plopping down as I start to laugh. :) I look at you smiling and you look so happy....

I'm going to stop there. :) But, the thing is, my mind likes to imagine things like this all the time, I don't always remember everything that plays out in my head but I do remember some things, and they are always about you now. <3 I love waiting to find out if it happens how it did in my mind!

~Samantha Day <3

Long Distance Relationships

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~Samantha

P.S.~ Kalen Im doing this to help out the website http://lovingfromadistance.com because google has started to get rid of personal made websites which means that they are losing visitors, especially those from other countries. But I just wanted to let you know :) I love you Booskie!

April 14, 2011

Sorry, I know I'm a little late with this post. :p But anyways... *sighs* I have to admit something. I am a bit stressed and scared about this whole moving thing. Mainly I'm scared about not being able to find an apartment or job. I'm not sure that we will be able to find something but I'm really hoping and praying. But, everyday I'm looking forward to being closer to you babe. I'm just afraid that if it doesn't happen, I'm going to not have a place to live and go to school. I don't want to lose my room here because if I do, I'm screwed. So, we need to find an apartment as soon as possible in order for me to stop stressing. I really really want this to happen. I  miss you so much! I just haven't felt like myself lately, I feel like I'm not as close to anyone as I am to you. And that's why I need you around, I need someone here that I can completely be myself around. I felt that with you, I could be as much me as I wanted to be. Well, I just wanted to let you know what's going on. I will talk to you soon <3 I love you.

~Samantha

April 11, 2011

It's so weird to think how the day of us moving in, grows closer and closer everyday. It's not something we're thinking of anymore; this plan is actually coming into fruition. I remember how we used to talk about this...like it was a fantasy. A large dream we only imagined out in our minds...wondering how special it'd be when we move in with one another, how we'd always be around one another, how much we'd do things together, yet, we'll be doing mostly everything together. For the year and coming on 4 months I've been with you, I never dreamed this day would be this close at hand. But, I truly feel as though, everything is lined up for this to happen. And I fully believe that this WILL happen. I'm tired of being without you, and I don't want to go longer and longer without you by my side. They say, "Distance makes the heart grow fonder." and, my heart is addicted to you. My soul is attached to you, my mind. I truly left my heart in Virginia, and there it'll stay, til' we move elsewhere. :) You're my everything, and I cannot wait for us to be together...for good. <3

April 10, 2011

I'm sitting here eating dinner and taking a break from homework and can't help but think about what its gonna be like living with you. The time we had together in November was amazing and if our life together is anything like that then I can't wait to live with you! I'm so excited about this babe, its a big step for both of us and even though we may be cutting it close some months with expenses and income, I know that it will be well worth it and the good will always outweigh the bad in our life. I will be putting everything I have into working towards being with you at the end of July. I can't wait to wake up next to you, watch TV with you, eat every meal with you, get ready for bed with you, go to sleep in your arms, and see you everyday. We will have so much fun together babe, all while thanking our parents for raising us the way they did so we are able to have an amazing life. I am so glad to have met you and to be moving forward with you everyday. I hope that the days we spend together go by slow so we can enjoy every minute of it. :) I love you <3

April 8, 2011

I was in the kitchen cooking, and instantly remembered cooking pancakes for you. <3 I remember the morning, watching you go off to school, I got up, and I was completely panicked about those pancakes. That's why I didn't cook them until you came back. I was tidying up the room a bit too. :P But, I was so scared because I didn't know whether you'd like them or not! I know I can cook, but trying to cook for your lover? For impression? For satisfaction? It's a mind-runner. I remember how you were watching me mix the batter and put them on the pan to cook. Your eyes were watching intensely too, and I loved it. It made me feel more confident in my cooking for you. I'm sure you could imagine my expression when you said you liked them. I wanted to jump and holler out, but I had to keep my composure and properly say Thank You. :) Just a funny thought for today. <3 I love you Samantha!

30 de marzo de 2011

Hola! Acabo salí la clase de español. Esta el la razón escribo en español. Acabo quiero decirlo lo mucho que significas  para mi. Bien, eso es suficiente de el español.  :p I just want to tell you that you mean the world to me babe, and I cannot wait to talk to you again. Everyday talking to you is what I wait for all day long. Even if we don't say much, it makes me day so much better. I know this is short, but at the moment, this is all I have to express to you. Lo siento mi amor. I love you muy muy mucho! *besos*

~Samantha <3

March 29th, 2011

Woke up this morning to the sound of your voice echoing in my head. That beautiful, calming voice of yours. It's crazy, how you can have so much love for one person. You never want to leave them, you always want to be where they are. Giving all your love to one person, and giving even more if possible. Thinking heavily of you throughout the day, wondering what you're doing this exact moment, & wishing I could be there with you. I want to be with you, so badly, & I think that's what sucks the energy out of me sometimes. Because my heart is not here, my mind is not here. It's still where you are. Sometimes I'll be thinking of you, and close my eyes, and echoes of your touch, your kiss, your soft words, linger throughout my mind. And when I open them you're not here. The necklace you gave me....I rarely take it off, sometimes just to feel a presence of you, I'll clench it in my hands. Somehow I can feel your love coursing through it, feeling like it's a part of you. And a part of me. <3

-Kalen- <3

March 28, 2011 @ 11:02 pm

Lately, all I can think about is you. Every second of the day, you are on my mind. I keep thinking about when you were here and how I felt that week. When you were here, I felt things I could have never imagined feeling. I was so happy and just... in a fantasy world. I loved your hugs and your sweet kisses. You did so much for me when you were here and I loved it. You are amazing and I am going to work so hard to be able to be with you. But you are worth it, every bit of it. Every so often I grab your shirt and I cuddle with it. It still very faintly has your scent and I love that. If I close my eyes, it makes me feel like you are here in some way. I remember when I was cold and you let me wear your jacket, which was huge on me. :p But it was so warm from you having it on and it made me feel like I was truly yours. (I'm smiling as I'm writing this by the way) I love you Booskie, so much!

~ Your baby girl :)

I love that I have things that remind me of you. <3

March 27, 2011 @ 10:46 a.m

This morning I awoke with sadness on my face. Dreamed of you all night long and woke up to realize it was only a dream.... Not seeing your face, and seeing your smile to greet my waking eyes. Missing your soft kiss that touched my lips when your eyes met mine in the morning. Even hearing your voice say, "Good Morning" was only just a thought in my head. But, then I smiled. I remembered all the happiness of waking up next to you, feeling your embrace, your kiss, your smile, your eyes. I smiled cause I knew that love was real, and it wasn't going anywhere. I remember the way you'd look at me, your eyes saying, "I'm so glad you're here now, and finally in my grasp." I knew after seeing that, I never want to leave you. <3

-Signed, Kalen- <3

March 26th, 2011 @ 10:30 am

I just woke up and immediately thoughts of you engorged my mind. I started to think about waking up next to you, with your arms around me. I remember exactly how it feels to be in your arms. Its like nothing can touch me, nothing will even dare to hurt me; its calming  and so relaxing. When you hold me I feel all of this love release from you and envelop me. Your arms are so cozy and warm, you are like my life size teddy bear. :) And waking up next to you is amazing; its a great way to start my day. Seeing a handsome, sexy man like you everyday brightened my mornings, especially when you would wake up and smile at me. :) When  I would wake up before you, Id kiss you, just to watch you smile softly as you were slowly awaking. I loved that you would offer to go make my coffee for me and you always got it perfect! You are so sweet and such a gentleman, just don't spoil me too much. :p When I woke up this morning, the first thing I did was grab teddy and my pillow and wrap my body around them as if it was you. It's definitely not the same but it works for now. I can't wait to cuddle with you again. <3

~Samantha Day ;)

March 26, 2001 @ 9:07 pm

Sitting in the room, and a random memory comes in my head of us. Our "Grand Adventure to Wal-Mart" as we call it. Was definitely one of the funnest days of my life. I don't know what it was, whether it was the spending time with you, or getting lost knowing you were right there beside me. Something about that day made it all fun, walking around with you, talking with you, and seeing the strong look on your face saying, "We're gonna make it, I know it's just a little further down the road.". I'm sure our feet were killing us that day, but I wasn't going to stop walking, I had to be strong for you, and unafraid for you. I would've even carried you if I needed to. Just to get us there and back was my main concern. You definitely made that walk all the better. I couldn't have imagined walking those 5 miles without you, I probably would've stopped half-way and went back home in frustration. But you...you kept a smile on my face, kept me upbeat and high-spirited. Your love kept me going, and I thank you. I thank you for all the love that you show me, day or night, far or near. It's undying, it's lively, it's unconditional. Something I look forward to every single day. :)

Signed, Kalen. <3 

March 25, 2011 @ 12:47 am

I am lying here in my bed on my laptop; I was talking to you but I think you fell asleep. I have to admit, I'm a little frustrated sometimes when this happens. I know in the back of my mind that nothing is wrong, but you know how I am; I'm always worrying. I always wonder what's going on on your side of the screen when you're not talking. Right now, I would really love to be with you. I feel like it's getting even harder to be away from you because everyday I am falling more and more in love with you. Sometimes I feel like you aren't Kalen, if that makes any sense. I guess because I know you so well and when you aren't acting yourself I can tell right away. But either way, I still love you with all of my heart. I know that things will get better when we are actually together in a few months but until then we have to keep each other happy and calm. I think we can manage to do that. And, I know how bad you want this, how bad you want us together; I want it just as much. You are really strong to still be with me right now, so many people give up when they realize how hard this is. But, not you, you're still here with me, by my side through anything and everything. Lately I have been worried about you because you just haven't seemed yourself but it comes and goes. Its nothing I'm too worried about, I just want my Kalen back. :) I miss you and I am forever thinking about you! But, the way I keep myself going is to remember that the good always outweighs the bad. You are the best thing to ever happen to me. I truly love you and I promise you I will always be around. I can't stop thinking about you and wondering what's going on over there on your side with your "busy" sign up. :-p I think I'm just going to go to bed soon. But, before I go... If I have ever hurt you, I'm sorry. I don't think I have but just in case, I'm apologizing now. I love you and I never ever want to make you feel bad. You are my world. <3

~Samantha @ 1:09 am