March 25, 2011 @ 12:47 am

I am lying here in my bed on my laptop; I was talking to you but I think you fell asleep. I have to admit, I'm a little frustrated sometimes when this happens. I know in the back of my mind that nothing is wrong, but you know how I am; I'm always worrying. I always wonder what's going on on your side of the screen when you're not talking. Right now, I would really love to be with you. I feel like it's getting even harder to be away from you because everyday I am falling more and more in love with you. Sometimes I feel like you aren't Kalen, if that makes any sense. I guess because I know you so well and when you aren't acting yourself I can tell right away. But either way, I still love you with all of my heart. I know that things will get better when we are actually together in a few months but until then we have to keep each other happy and calm. I think we can manage to do that. And, I know how bad you want this, how bad you want us together; I want it just as much. You are really strong to still be with me right now, so many people give up when they realize how hard this is. But, not you, you're still here with me, by my side through anything and everything. Lately I have been worried about you because you just haven't seemed yourself but it comes and goes. Its nothing I'm too worried about, I just want my Kalen back. :) I miss you and I am forever thinking about you! But, the way I keep myself going is to remember that the good always outweighs the bad. You are the best thing to ever happen to me. I truly love you and I promise you I will always be around. I can't stop thinking about you and wondering what's going on over there on your side with your "busy" sign up. :-p I think I'm just going to go to bed soon. But, before I go... If I have ever hurt you, I'm sorry. I don't think I have but just in case, I'm apologizing now. I love you and I never ever want to make you feel bad. You are my world. <3

~Samantha @ 1:09 am