30 de marzo de 2011

Hola! Acabo salí la clase de español. Esta el la razón escribo en español. Acabo quiero decirlo lo mucho que significas  para mi. Bien, eso es suficiente de el español.  :p I just want to tell you that you mean the world to me babe, and I cannot wait to talk to you again. Everyday talking to you is what I wait for all day long. Even if we don't say much, it makes me day so much better. I know this is short, but at the moment, this is all I have to express to you. Lo siento mi amor. I love you muy muy mucho! *besos*

~Samantha <3

March 29th, 2011

Woke up this morning to the sound of your voice echoing in my head. That beautiful, calming voice of yours. It's crazy, how you can have so much love for one person. You never want to leave them, you always want to be where they are. Giving all your love to one person, and giving even more if possible. Thinking heavily of you throughout the day, wondering what you're doing this exact moment, & wishing I could be there with you. I want to be with you, so badly, & I think that's what sucks the energy out of me sometimes. Because my heart is not here, my mind is not here. It's still where you are. Sometimes I'll be thinking of you, and close my eyes, and echoes of your touch, your kiss, your soft words, linger throughout my mind. And when I open them you're not here. The necklace you gave me....I rarely take it off, sometimes just to feel a presence of you, I'll clench it in my hands. Somehow I can feel your love coursing through it, feeling like it's a part of you. And a part of me. <3

-Kalen- <3

March 28, 2011 @ 11:02 pm

Lately, all I can think about is you. Every second of the day, you are on my mind. I keep thinking about when you were here and how I felt that week. When you were here, I felt things I could have never imagined feeling. I was so happy and just... in a fantasy world. I loved your hugs and your sweet kisses. You did so much for me when you were here and I loved it. You are amazing and I am going to work so hard to be able to be with you. But you are worth it, every bit of it. Every so often I grab your shirt and I cuddle with it. It still very faintly has your scent and I love that. If I close my eyes, it makes me feel like you are here in some way. I remember when I was cold and you let me wear your jacket, which was huge on me. :p But it was so warm from you having it on and it made me feel like I was truly yours. (I'm smiling as I'm writing this by the way) I love you Booskie, so much!

~ Your baby girl :)

I love that I have things that remind me of you. <3

March 27, 2011 @ 10:46 a.m

This morning I awoke with sadness on my face. Dreamed of you all night long and woke up to realize it was only a dream.... Not seeing your face, and seeing your smile to greet my waking eyes. Missing your soft kiss that touched my lips when your eyes met mine in the morning. Even hearing your voice say, "Good Morning" was only just a thought in my head. But, then I smiled. I remembered all the happiness of waking up next to you, feeling your embrace, your kiss, your smile, your eyes. I smiled cause I knew that love was real, and it wasn't going anywhere. I remember the way you'd look at me, your eyes saying, "I'm so glad you're here now, and finally in my grasp." I knew after seeing that, I never want to leave you. <3

-Signed, Kalen- <3

March 26th, 2011 @ 10:30 am

I just woke up and immediately thoughts of you engorged my mind. I started to think about waking up next to you, with your arms around me. I remember exactly how it feels to be in your arms. Its like nothing can touch me, nothing will even dare to hurt me; its calming  and so relaxing. When you hold me I feel all of this love release from you and envelop me. Your arms are so cozy and warm, you are like my life size teddy bear. :) And waking up next to you is amazing; its a great way to start my day. Seeing a handsome, sexy man like you everyday brightened my mornings, especially when you would wake up and smile at me. :) When  I would wake up before you, Id kiss you, just to watch you smile softly as you were slowly awaking. I loved that you would offer to go make my coffee for me and you always got it perfect! You are so sweet and such a gentleman, just don't spoil me too much. :p When I woke up this morning, the first thing I did was grab teddy and my pillow and wrap my body around them as if it was you. It's definitely not the same but it works for now. I can't wait to cuddle with you again. <3

~Samantha Day ;)

March 26, 2001 @ 9:07 pm

Sitting in the room, and a random memory comes in my head of us. Our "Grand Adventure to Wal-Mart" as we call it. Was definitely one of the funnest days of my life. I don't know what it was, whether it was the spending time with you, or getting lost knowing you were right there beside me. Something about that day made it all fun, walking around with you, talking with you, and seeing the strong look on your face saying, "We're gonna make it, I know it's just a little further down the road.". I'm sure our feet were killing us that day, but I wasn't going to stop walking, I had to be strong for you, and unafraid for you. I would've even carried you if I needed to. Just to get us there and back was my main concern. You definitely made that walk all the better. I couldn't have imagined walking those 5 miles without you, I probably would've stopped half-way and went back home in frustration. But you...you kept a smile on my face, kept me upbeat and high-spirited. Your love kept me going, and I thank you. I thank you for all the love that you show me, day or night, far or near. It's undying, it's lively, it's unconditional. Something I look forward to every single day. :)

Signed, Kalen. <3 

March 25, 2011 @ 12:47 am

I am lying here in my bed on my laptop; I was talking to you but I think you fell asleep. I have to admit, I'm a little frustrated sometimes when this happens. I know in the back of my mind that nothing is wrong, but you know how I am; I'm always worrying. I always wonder what's going on on your side of the screen when you're not talking. Right now, I would really love to be with you. I feel like it's getting even harder to be away from you because everyday I am falling more and more in love with you. Sometimes I feel like you aren't Kalen, if that makes any sense. I guess because I know you so well and when you aren't acting yourself I can tell right away. But either way, I still love you with all of my heart. I know that things will get better when we are actually together in a few months but until then we have to keep each other happy and calm. I think we can manage to do that. And, I know how bad you want this, how bad you want us together; I want it just as much. You are really strong to still be with me right now, so many people give up when they realize how hard this is. But, not you, you're still here with me, by my side through anything and everything. Lately I have been worried about you because you just haven't seemed yourself but it comes and goes. Its nothing I'm too worried about, I just want my Kalen back. :) I miss you and I am forever thinking about you! But, the way I keep myself going is to remember that the good always outweighs the bad. You are the best thing to ever happen to me. I truly love you and I promise you I will always be around. I can't stop thinking about you and wondering what's going on over there on your side with your "busy" sign up. :-p I think I'm just going to go to bed soon. But, before I go... If I have ever hurt you, I'm sorry. I don't think I have but just in case, I'm apologizing now. I love you and I never ever want to make you feel bad. You are my world. <3

~Samantha @ 1:09 am